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hari neh start blk menaip after berbulan2 x update..sbb nye..ak MALAS..

ari neh sedih coz DIA...alaaa..si dia yg bertakhta di ati ku neh...
entah lah...gado lg laa neh kn..yup..btol.. maybe da smpai ending kot my relationship..
sbb ari tue last jmpe ari isnin,,ak gtau die yg neh last jmpe b4 blk Arau..n die dgn selamba ckp.." ok...bt pe jmpe byk2 kali." yeee..jwpn yg ak x penah ak sangka akn kluar dr mulut die..biasenye die msti nk jmpe dlu b4 g arau...
Is that the sign???
Entah.. patah seribu ak...
pape pon ak hope yg terbaik..If ak x terbaik tok die..better die cri yg lain kn...as long as die hepyy coz ak hepy ble die hepy...

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Iloveyouuu,

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i'm free

yes...i'm free...
hahahaha..free la..td last paper..even maen bt jew..ak x kiro..dlm otak ak pikir nk blk tdo puas2...tgk tv puas2..ak geram dah neh,..
hopefully..lepas lah ek..
x sbr nk blk..
::: mau packing...


tatataaaaa

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Iloveyouuu,

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sy tau awk syg sy...kn..kn??

awk...bkk laaa hp...kol sy..sorrry la.. td terlebih emosional laa,,sooryy laaa B..
cpt laa awkk..sy sedih neh...bkak laaa hp tue..
sy tau awk syg sy kn... eleee..sy tau laa awkkn...kn..kn..
sy tau awk bce blog sy neh...cpt laa awk...st tggu neh...

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Iloveyouuu,

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b,,ayg nk tbk g pasar mlm neh..pah nk g cmart meta sbb bibi nk g bli brg2.sy nk tbk jalan2..streesss..sy x kn curang..

nnti bkak hp tlg msg sy..x pyah la mrh2 lama2..sy mtk maaf sbb bt awk mrh..sy stress la b..
btk masalah..awk tau kn gpo masalah sy..
BTW b..i love u b..love u sooooo much b.....
k lah b..love u..nnti klu bkak blog neh msg deh..

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Iloveyouuu,

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be strong!!!

hey kamoooo  amilin man........
be strong....make it motivates u to improve urself..
don't think about it..everything will be fine..

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Iloveyouuu,

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is that the ending???

ending kew?????
entah la,,x nk stress kn ngan menda2 cam neh,,nk concentrate kt last paper neh..
tp asyik pikir plak..
emm..langit x selalu nyer cerah..same goes with relationship..ad naik turun nyer,,,kjap ok..kjap tidak..kali neh bpe lama plak ambk masa nk okey pon xtau la..

tp die sllalu maen2..die cpt mrh tp cpt cool..emm,, x tau laa..
tp sedih...org kata gado2 neh da asam garam idup neh..
sorry xtau nk post ape lg,,rse sedih..nk tdo x mau bgn2 da..
BTW  
: : :    hope it was not ending to my relationship...

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Iloveyouuu,

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cpt menyerah kalah..

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knpe perlu cpt menyerah kalah...gagal sklai x bereti gagal selamnaya..ko da usaha..tue yg ape yg ko dpt..rerdha jer lah..
isshhhh..knpe ak x mcm neh haaa..why ak slalu menyerah kalah..even ak xtau lg pe result die,,
tp ak cpt gler down ble ak rse ak truk..hey..relax.
ko dh usaha.. dh tawakal kt Allah s.w.tInsyaAllah...die tlg..even klau die x bg pon that means die nk bg yg lbh baik dr ko mtk tue..so please...please..please..bersabar ye..


hey wake up amilin man..make it motivates u to be strenght okeyy..

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Iloveyouuu,

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jauh di mata dekat di hati

ape yg ak rse neh bt ak sedih..xtau knpe..ak rse sejak 2 menjak neh ak makin jauh ngan die.kurang da mase kami gelak2 mcm org gila..pendek kata jarang dh bt lawak bodoh..xtau la knpe tp rse sedih la..xske mcm neh...tp still kuat kn ati lg..pujuk ati biar ak rse x sedih..tgh final neh..x nk stress tp xtau la..ak asyik pikir je..antara die ad yg lain or die da boring ngan..anta 2 tue jew..mmg ak xde masa sgt ngan die tp ak bkn pegi jln2 ke ape ke..tp ak stdy laaa..ak x maen2 pon..
sorry la awk..sy xde masa kt awk..tp sy x curang..awk...tlg doakn kejayaan sy ye..nnti blk kte pegi mkn mcd..awk nk mkn prosperity kn..sggp awk tgu sy blk sbb nk mkn ngan sy..sbr ye awk..sy akan blk cpt2 ...okey..

  .....kte jauh di mata tapi dekat di HATI....

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Iloveyouuu,

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dugaan time final..

ayoyo...3 paper da lps even still dok pikir ag..asal ak leh bengong time qmt..yg pasal transportation tue..pastu pening pikir gak yg personal planning pnyer paper..ak xtau ak jwb ape tp ak jwb gak..ak x ingt da acc yg ak bljr dlu..( ak mmg pelupa yer )tue sbb ak kna stdy byk2..kt sape2 yg pikir ak stdy agak 2 gler n pulun tue..jgn risau kt ak sbb otak kte lain..even ak stdy byk pon ak xleh jwb jgk kn..( ee,,mtk jauh la mnda2 camneh kn )tp ak xske org yg ckp cam neh.." ak rse ak stdy sket jah tp blh jwb la, senang jer "
no..no..no..no..no..xleh riak mcm tue yer kwn2...x elok tok kesihatan riak 2..
eh,,nk cter sket..mlm nk stdy personal planning 2 kn..ati ak x tenang..ak xtau npe..ak stdy dkt 2 jam x msk pape pon..jd ak ambk wuduk pas2 pi solat dlm keadaan x bkak lampu..ak nangis2 sbb ak tkt nk final..sbb ati ak x tenang..pas2 br rse tenang sket..n then ak stdy smbl dgr mp3..tp x dgr lagu..dgr zikir.time tue rse tenang sgt..smpai ak menangis lg skali..ak xtau knpe mcm 2.. ak hayati zikir tue pas2 ak nangis..teringat dosa2 ak penah bt..mmg ak x sempurna.ak pon x lari dr bt dosa..kte manusia kn..pastue tok kuatkn semangat ak..ak ingt ma nge abah ak..ingt jasa dieorg..
Tp ALHAMDULILAH..pastue ak rse tenang n blh stdy.
.ingt si die yg slalu bg support kt ak..suh ak stdy..pg first paper 2 die bgn awal gler..die suh ak mndi2 awal pastue bt solat sunat @ solat dhuha..die oyk ingt..kte nk berjuang kna mtk keberkatan dr Tuhan..

:: ak nk sgt capai target ak sem neh..doakan kejayaan kte bersama ye kwn2..AMIN..

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Iloveyouuu,

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love

love is cinta..
emmmm... xtau mlm neh rse plg truk.. x gado tp tbe2 rse sedih..mmg ak garang..tp menda yg ak ckp time mrh 2 x sengaja..ckp main lepas jer..

to him : sy mtk maaf sbb mrh2..sy x sengaja ckp mcm 2..awk pntg dlm idup sy even bz mcm ne pon awk tetap msg sy,,sy x mtk ape2 dr awk..sy x mau sedih2..sy syg awk sorg jer..sy tau satu ari nnti akn brubh awk..kte da lama couple..dkt 5 thn..awk tau sy mcm mne kn,,sy mtk maaf..
I NEED U,,PLEASE FORGIVE ME.

 FOR U..

MY B aka MOHAMAD DARUS BIN ISMAIL

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Iloveyouuu,

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terharu..

neh cter smlm..time syok stdy qmt..tbe2 perut meragam..eee.......geram la..dah la esok ( ari neh ) nk final..first time cam neh..3 or 4 kali gak ulang alik ke toilet..
ak tkt gler time final jd mcm neh sbb konpem x cukup mase la klau ak pi tandas kn.time ak " syok " dk pi ulang alik ke toilet 2..hahaahaaaa...syok??? mmg gila ak neh..ade la hamba Allah yg bermurah ati sggp msg kt jiran kami aka classmate kami..die suh bli pil kit teck un..btol ke aka eja neh..ak pon xreti sgt nk sebt nama pil 2..saintifik gler nama die.. mmg terharu sbb ad gak yg concern pasal ak..ad yg bg ubat laa..smua org bz kot stdy tok paper 2..blh lg nk concern kt ak..yg jiran kami aka classmate kami 2 plak 2 bli pil 2 kt ak..pastue siap bg free ag..
::: ak terharu bler org bt baik ngan ak..even dunia dah canggih..org masih lg berperikamanusiaan..

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Iloveyouuu,

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first paper pon daa mcm tootttt...

first paper pon da truk..xtau pe nk jadik..
da lah..abah sggp blk umah bt solat hajat tok ak..die keje tp blk umah bt solat hajat.ak terharu gler.ak harap ak lulus cemerlang paper neh..ak nk A.
mtk2 makbul  la doa ak ngan abah..tp doa seorang bapa kpd anak mujarab..
ak nk bg ma ngan abah menangis sbb kejayaan ak..tue ak nak...tue je yg ak blh bg kat ma abh..

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Iloveyouuu,

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oohh...tidak...

kejap jer..besok da final da..rse mcm x ready pon ad..rse mcm nk cpt2 hbs pon ad..yelaaa..stress tau..
sampai xde masa kt diri sndri neh..

btw.. wish me luck ye..doakan kejayaan sy..

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Iloveyouuu,

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facebook tmpt luah perasaan kah???

ape motif korang post status pelik2 di fb..mksd ak status yg bt org tertanya-tanya...n that make people not comfortable with it..
yeah..fb tmpt curah perasaan kn..tp bg ak blog tmpt ak luah perasaan coz lbh privacy,,coz ak bkn nk bt org sakit ati ngan status ak..ohhhh... tidak.. itu tidak baik utk kesihatan yer...why?????sbb tok kn bt org rse sakit ati ngan status..
yee... ak tau tu fb ko kn..bkn fb ak..tue hak ko..lantak pe ko nk bt kn..yeah..bt hal sndri je..
:: sekadar meluahkan pendapat jer,,jgn terasa..mtk maaf klau salah ye..

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Iloveyouuu,

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tatata 2011..

yeah...besok start buku baru..buku lama leh buang da..thn neh x bpe nk ong sgt..hopefully, nex year ong ye..


::: wish me luck...
sorry..bz ngan final...x sempat nk update blog sgt..

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Iloveyouuu,

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hari2 lmbt

hari2 bgn lmbt weyh..mentang2 lar stdy week kn,,xde class..hahaha..
tp smlm tdo kul 6  lbh..ak tkt kalau ak tdo ak x bgn solat subuh..tue yg ak x mau tdoo trus..
haha..teringat ak ngan roomate ak dlu pon mcm 2 gak.kami stdy smpai subuh br tdo..kes nye tkt tertinggal solat subuh..
bg ak kn..solat subuh tue pntg ..sbb die permulaan tok ari 2.blh katakn lau tggl rse x aman la...sbb xde preparation tok ari 2..haha..
ko sape..bajet ustazah laa tue nk bg ceramah..eh....tidakkkkkkkkkk...ak just share pendapat ak jek..
sorrrry ye...

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Iloveyouuu,

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kerna diri ku x begitu bharga..

yoyoyo..tajuk msti ad gah pnye..entry xde pape xpe asal title 2 gah..hahaha..

ari neh kn,...tibe2 terasa diri ku x pntg...emo semacam je ak..ari2 ak emo..
heyyyy...ske ati ak laa mau emo ke..mau ape ka...
chow...mau stdy..

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Iloveyouuu,

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first stdy week di Arau

b4 this stdy week,konpem blk kg coz bg ak nk ambk berkat mak ayah kntp sorrry to say..stdy week sem neh ak xblk...
bkn pe bajet nk stdy laaa..sbb ak kt umah xkn stdy,,bwk blk buku 2 3 guni pon tntu ag ak bce...ngeng kn ak,..
so ak decide x yah blk..
::: ma abh... doa ko lin dh..mtk maaf byk2 klu ad bt salah..lin tau lin tolol sket dr hok lain,,tue lin byk salah nge ma..

yoyoyo..masa itu emas,,,x mau maen2...

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Iloveyouuu,

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hari ini enggak ade pape yg best..berlakon scene mandarin yg x brape nk mnjadik sgt.
emmm..ari neh sseedihhhh..da bpe ari ak sedih..rse stress..rse nk blk umah jew..
ngan b pon ak rse makin jauh..maybe sbb kteorg byk gadoh kot..skrg da jarang gelak2 mcm babun ngan die..klau dlu mcm gilak ak nge die..bt lawak mcm kwn2..kdg2 rse mcm bdk2..ak pesan kt die matang la sket b wey..tp skrg die da matang tp..ak rndu die yg dlu..yg hepy..yg sempoi..yg blh bt lawak plg bodoh la..lawak yg bodoh..kdg2 ak rse die tue sempoi gler kot..
tp yg pntg dgn die ak x hipokrit,,kdg2 ak mkn lbh dr die..hahahahaaha..pelik kan..
sbb tue laa ak syg die,..

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Iloveyouuu,

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I need U..

b...sy sedih..sy xtau nk luah kt sape dh..td awk bz kje jd..jd sy nangis sorg..xpolah..
bkn ad gpo pon,,awk tau kn sy manja b..sy mne kuat po awk b..sy kn jerit sokmo..sy kn lenjo..
tp td x tahan sgt b..pah ore dk kata kokse2 ko sy..sy sedih..sy xtau bkpo tp sy dpt rse ore dk ngata ko sy...tp xpo b..sy kuat gak..sy try nk jaga ati semua org..klu blh xse bt silap..sy try cari masa ko awk gak..sy bkn jns kuat stdy pon..sy main2 jah sokmo kn b..
sy mtk maaf b sbb xdop masa ko awk..
pg td bgn bce msg awk smbl jerit..sokmo ayat awk sedih..sy x penah pon tggl awk..mmg sy kurang masa ko awk tp sy kalut...awk tau kn sy ad awk..sy x hepy pon dk cni..sy paksa diri sy tok kuat..sy nk buktikan ko ma.yg even gwe pon dpt result molek..awk tlg la doakan hok terbaik ko sy..
sy tau awk sokmo bace blog sy kn..awk la follower blog sy...

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Iloveyouuu,

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